Trust...what a novel concept.....unfortunatley one that was long ago shattered and just when it's almost healed the scar gets ripped open again...

Wow. Long time no talk guys. I've missed this. I think.

My summer has consisted of some incredibly random events. There was the staying at relay for life till four in the morning. ( i was soo ready to stay till seven but my bro wanted to leave). Then we have the multiple frolfing/volleyball/barbecues. Let's not forget the staying up until one thirty watching Forrest Gump and then shooting silly string into my cousins ear when he fell asleep on the floor. He went to bed to discover his bed was short sheeted and there was a fake snake in it. Yes, I did sleep with a can of silly string in my hand that night in self defense. I watched The Notebook twice in under a week. and no i didn't cry. Movies usually don't make me cry. I rollerbladed down a parking garage and almost died (yea somewhere between jumping the foot and a half high curb that i didnt' know was there going too fast to stop or control myself and the busy street panic hit). Of course we have the late night going to parks and swinging. There's your going to Harry Potter in a dress ( I made a deal and there's what happend). I got funny looks for that one of course. Driving down busy streets with the windows down blaring incredibly random songs singing at the top of our lungs while spitting out sunflower seeds. Watching hours on end of Gilmore Girls and 7th Heaven. Late night talks with my cousin. Just all of the random things I do with you crazy people. These are what makes a teenagers summer.

Let me just say one thing. Don't make assumptions based on appearances. There is so much more to me than meets the eye. In what I say and do. There is nothing more discouraging and almost stressful than people spreading things around even when i say they aren't true.

Well I'm sure there are a million more thinsg I could fill all of you in on about my life. But it would take too long and it's almost one and i'm too tired. But i do love all of you. I am goin' to work at camp next week. I'm soo excited especially to see all of you again!!!

Hey everyone!! Sorry I keep neglecting to write. Somehow facebook and myspace have all gotten thrown into the mix of my online blog-thingys! (yay for me and my non technical language!!). A lot has been goin' on since I last posted. Umm...lets see.....I've gotten asked to prom three times (two of them were within twenty seconds of each other). My solution? NOT GOIN!!! lol. I don't even think i want to go next year. But i WILL go to post prom. Cuz that just sounds fun. Too much drama is around dances, so i will stay away thank you very much. :P I've been doin' a lot of riding. I mean a LOT. I usually manage to get out there about three to four times a week (which is like a record for me this year.) Only hard part is I have track from four to six, and a lot of the time I don't get out there till around eight and then I don't get home until about ten something and go straight to bed. I pretty much have something going on every night of the week. It gets crazy and at first it wore me out, now i get bored if i dont' always have something to do. crazy how that works! I've been getting together with friends a lot...and there have been many trips to walmart. i do mean MANY. I even got my MOM to SLAP THE HAM!!! it was hilarious. i didn't think she'd do it.

This summer, I'm planning on taking my horse out of Montgomerys and back out to Grand Marias. I want to get a job out there cleaning and feeding and possibly see if i could earn some more money riding people's horses for them. So i would pretty much be out there all day. It sounds like my kind of job. I don't think I could handle being stuck inside working all summer. i'm goin' to volunteer at camp a few times as well. I love that place, but I really don't feel like I'm supposed to be there all summer. So volunteering it is!!

I'm also going to get to take a trip to Chicago with my dad and my brother. Ben's graduating this summer, and is going to Moody in Chicago. My dad and I are going to be driving him out there. I should be able to spend about a week there. It'll be a blast!!!

I'm very excited to be able to spend some time at home, and not be away all summmer. That was sorta hard last year.

To get a kitten or not to get a kitten? that is the question. i'd have to pay for the vet bills. hm.....but they're sooo cute!!!!

Update on boys: No boyfriend!! haha and honestly that is a-ok with me :P (i've got my boy!! haha u all know who THAT is!!)

O yea and I might be going to Spokane for a while this summer too. My mom and I are hopefully going for Hoopfest. I'm excited tho cuz i can drive and it'll make the trip far less boring. (I'm gonna be the one doing a lot of the driving to Chicago too)

Well that's about it on my crazy life. Hope u didn't find it too boring.....oh btw..i'm in love!! with M&Ms. have a good rest of your Easter Holiday people!! He is Risen!!!

Naomi

" Iwas at this restaurant. The sign said "Breakfast Anytime" So I ordered French Toast during the Renaissance."

-Steven Wright

Crying. I hate doing it, and I dont' do it often. I suppose reading a really depressing book doesn't help when I'm this moody. Why do parents fight and divorce when it only causes so much pain for everyone? Why do people have to hurt, and i can't stand just sitting there being able to do nothing about it. Their pain hurts me almost as much as it hurts them. Is this what God feels like when he sees His children suffer? I think it is, only the pain for Him much be so much worse. My mom really wants to move, and I'm getting pressure from my relatives to move. Correction: she needs to move. It's killing her to stay here where there are painful memories everywhere, and it kills me to see it killing her and to know the only reason she's still here is because she doesn't want me to have to move. I can't move. I've gone through so much this year i couldn't handle the trauma. Yet it hurts to see her hurt. I dont know what to do anymore. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. My riding hasn't even been going well. I'm getting pushed by Krista and nothing seems to be going right for us, and it's stressing me out hardcore. I guess you'd have to be a rider to understand that one. I can't relax no matter what I do. I feel like i really don't have anyone to talk to about this. I don't want to start sounding like I'm incredibly depressed, becasue i know what it's like to have people rag on you about their troubles so much that it starts wearing you down. i don't want to become that. I have no safe place to hide from all of this. People I thought I knew turn out to be backstabbing, lying, jerks who only care about gettin in someones pants. That hurts too. Either my judge of character sucks or people are changing a LOT lately. Then there's always guys....but whoa, not gettin into that. Not in the mood to get hurt. Mr. Right must be out there, and he's gonna hafta come find me. Cuz i'm stayin' away from relationships right now. They only mess up friendships and i honestly don't think of one person who's single who's even worth looking at. Sad.

Wow, i actually feel a lot better now. LOL ranting is good sometimes. Luvs you all.....

naomi